The Power & Strength in Silence.


Lately, I’ve been thinking about quietness and silence—two words synonymous at first glance but diverge the deeper the meanings are inspected.

I’m a huge advocate on speaking on what’s on one’s mind and standing up for my beliefs. The moment someone violates a value of mine, I’m immediately stand up, garner a stance, and ready to debate it out. Despite this being a momentous topic played in the media and something I want, being silent is a negative aspect, as if a person has nothing to contribute to a discussion or opinion on such a manner. However, this is not the tangent of silence I would like to discuss today.

I’ve lately had a renewed initiation into the world of silence and quiet after several weeks of bombarding voices, including friends who are getting into their dream schools (MIT! Yale! Colorado School of Mines! Washington University in St. Louis! Montana State! Harvard! A lot of these are full-rides or most tuition covered!), demands made by all the adult figures in my life to prep for life and exploration after high school, as well as the negative voices in my head screaming every time a multi-tiered tension physics problem emerges with various blocks moving as the system accelerates and the question demands to find the minimum acceleration force. There have been a ton of good emerging as well: ranting about life with others, sending snail mail to some friends, and getting cheered on as I tackled the book tree and tried to see my luck in choosing either a library or ARC.

I do have times where I retreat and try to bask in the alone time I have, but one of the things I’ve realized as I’ve entered this semester and just in growing up, in general, is the increments of that silent moments slowly decrease. Slowly, they become less and less and transform time where others are demand aspects demand for more of your attention, which is fine. It’s like a cup of tea—while enjoyable, sometimes it’s too diluted for a person to see a reflection, but instead of a reflection, there’s a lack of voice, and we have to fight to gain some of the time back. I’ve also raved on so much this year about the importance of self-care and taking care of your own mental health and almost underlying, stepping back and just expelling negative voices does come hand in hand.

Here are three other things I’ve learned about silence:

// While it’s good to have others help input opinions and while they should be taken into consideration, you’re making decisions that will affect you, so take the time to think hard to yourself as to the cumulative scope. This is something I’ve seen as I worked through most of my college apps. A lot of the choices going into consideration besides cost and location is, “Why do I want to apply here? Will this be a good fit for me? Should I double major or should I start off with this instead?” While some of you readers may not take the college route at all, there are a lot of areas also affected by this thought process as well. Kate Emmons, the author of The Blood Race, mentions in her q&a, the reason she refrained from continuing down the traditional publishing route was because of the lack of creative control she had with her novel.

// Enjoy the quiet moments—and honestly, you don’t have to share them all the time. Some of you older readers may remember my eighth-grade self, creating a blog post every single week about everything I did and ate, as well as the awkward details regarding my endeavors, but as junior and senior year passed, I felt less obliged to post more of these. Part of the reason was because most of my junior year dedicated itself to dance and volunteering at the library, where public photography is limited, and while I haven't gotten rid of them completely, I realized I reveled and appreciated these memories more when they're kept to myself. They haven't all entirely gone away just yet— second semester is bound to have more frequently life update posts.

// If the silence becomes too overbearing after some time, speak. Silence can be good to step back, but sometimes the voices in our heads become too overpowered and it's okay to say, "I Am Not Okay," just as Eve, Elle Storset, and myself have all recently admitted. I often resort to spending hours of texting friends, often for support and subject understanding (as they help me understand concepts that aren't as easily intuitive than others).

What do you think about silence? How has the remaining days of the semester been treating you? Also yearbook update: slowly making progress on turning it into a reality! Will be somewhat more done next week.

8 comments:

  1. Treasure silence while it lasts. Being an adult, I've noticed those quiet moments don't always stick around. And don't be afraid to reach out!

    I loved this post, Abby!

    Catherine
    catherinesrebellingmuse.blogspot.com

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    1. Thanks, Catherine. I’m slowly beginning to realize this, too, although I’m trying so hard to cherish everything right now. ^.^

      xoxo Abigail Lennah

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  2. YES!!!

    I love this post. I feel like it is all too easy for me to let others make decisions for me or influence heavily my choices (I am not the type of person to speak up a ton), and it's nice to have reminders that while silence is something to be treasured, I also need to speak up as well. There's definitely a balance that I have yet to discover. XD

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    1. I’m the same, Evangeline. There are times for sure where I’ve talked to others and their decisions influenced mine, and when I step away and finishing I always keeping thinking, “If only I spoke out....” And hey, finding that balance? It’s always a struggle finding balancing and it’s a never ending process, but I’m sure you’ll be able to find and reach the center.

      xoxo Abigail Lennah

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  3. There have been so many great posts on my feed today! Thanks for bringing the topic of silence to my mind.

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    1. Everyone’s blog posts during this time of year are so well-written— I have to agree with you.

      xoxo Abigail Lennah

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