"There's only us, there's only this. Forget, regret, or life is yours to miss." –“Finale B,” Rent
Regret. Out of the cumulation of high school semesters, this is the one held with the most of it. Opportunities standing in front of life squabbled away like injured chickens, and when I arrived at the end of the corner, the chances of grasping cinched shut. My position squandered the floor with full force as life slammed fifty bags of past embarrassment slammed me further into the ground.
I turn red whenever I "gracefully" ascend to the ground or sometimes accidentally say something without thinking. We have the capacity to laugh it off because we are human, not androids (although someone like Iko would be cool), and that's a part of life. Combine embarrassment with regret, however, and something lethal is born.
How do we deal with past regret or embarrassments we simply just can't get over?
It seems like the worst because this horrendous, ghastly thing pops up out of nowhere. On the exterior, you appear calm, with the only sign of slight distaste visible for a few seconds. Within the interior, your arms reach outstretched and multiple small versions frantically scatter across your brain, screaming, "Ahh!"
Talk it out!
"I think most people understand that humans grow and change... like they do anywhere else."
I applaud her for this, because it's something that slapped hard in the tunnel-vision situation. Tunnel vision can be the scourge because in that moment, we are focused on ourselves and forget everything else around us. We need to step back and look, friends.
A small mishap that you're embarrassed of happened, and so it happened. Personally, I imagine life like a scale with good and bad on each side-- there's still plenty of changes for filling up the scales with good. The average person in the world lives up to seventy years! Small mistakes, mishaps, embarrassments, regrets-- they happen all the time, but what about the huge portion of the time remaining? More than likely it's been spent doing positive things. We need to remember the positives.
Forgetting seems easier, but if you wish to forget, step forward with the notion you are going to do better. It does take time and effort, but if you persevere and try, you're making progress.
Look up, because as hopefully and dream-like as it may sound, life on the outside in cool.The lyrics in Finale B are much more impactful, now that I look at it closer. There are two things but if one lurks in the past, the opportunities of life will bequest you. We need to be at peace with our past, accept it, and look back. As Oakstar said to me,
"I'd want to own up... and be proud of everything I've done that's brought me to this moment."
Are there things that you've regret in the past? Are there even more steps than the generalized in the post, or do you have another process you use? How do you personally let go?