31 December 2014

2014: A Review

This year has been one of the more better eyes I have experienced. Gosh, saying that makes me sound so old, but it is a fact in my life. I have made new friends and experiences, both up and down, all because of simple choices I made, have welled up into my memory, and it has made me so happy.

Things that happened this year:
  1. I got into theatre and made tons of new friends (which has helped my confidence and ability to talk to others much better).
  2. I watched so many movies in theaters, around 15 or so. Some of my favorites that came were How To Train Your Dragon 2 and Big Hero 6.
  3. I got into the blog design business and am reopening up my shop again! On the first I'll post the form link.
  4. I got to connect with some more bloggers. It's always lovely to hear from you guys (next year, I will make more of an effort to comment, even when I am busy and dying of homework).
In JANUARY...
I auditioned for a Merlin-related play • Met new friends • Went to a Breakfast-for-Dinner party • Celebrated a relative's birthday by having a sleepover at a hotel • Watched Frozen for the first time


In FEBRUARY...
Still continued with theatre • Typed about Icy People • Talked about stereotypes and labels • Celebrated my first year blog anniversary

In MARCH...
Final performance for theatre occurred • Wrote about memories • Posted about Bee

In APRIL...
Went on a youth retreat • I reminisced

In MAY...
Spoke out about technology • Received second in We the People • Summer began • Grandmother came back from Europe

In JUNE...
Attended a youth conference • Sketched animated characters messily • Hosted a Q & A • Tried Java Programming

IN JULY...
Celebrated Independence Day • Held a flower photography shoot • Visited an air base and my cousin's birthday

In AUGUST...
Reviewed the summer • Entered my first day of school • Dreaded my audition... But got a role.

In SEPTEMBER...
Duct taped people to lockers for homework • Celebrated my birthday

In OCTOBER...
Discussed about INFPs • Finished the production of The Three Musketeers

In NOVEMBER...
Participated in NaNoWriMo •
Took part in a writing conference • Went to a cast reunion • Watched Big Hero 6 twice

In DECEMBER...

Celebrated blessings an opportunities • Partially answered the question, "What is the meaning of life?" • Went to Walt Disney World

NEXT YEAR, I am not sure what is coming my way. Nothing at the end of this year has set me up for the months to come, but I cannot wait to take on whatever comes my way.

As for RESOLUTIONS, I just want to help spread positivity and finish up at least three of the novel idea buzzing up in my mind. Well, the time for 2014 is coming to a close, and a new door is about to open. I wish you all the best in 2015!

15 December 2014

I'm a Good Witch! I Think...



So here I am, sitting in my living room, typing up the last live post before I go and leave for vacation. These past several hours have been, surprisingly, been a roller coaster ride-- all do to auditions, going to the library, trying to get my school work together.

Over the weekend I attempted my best to memorize a monologue. I decided to go and choose a monologue from the book Lemonade Mouth, the part when Olivia Whitehead, the lead singer of the band, explains how she got detention. It was a fun piece to memorize, because I got to use myself to tell Olivia's story. (It was cool to see how she got detention-- detention! I never had detention before, and to act something that I am not; incredible.) 

My mom and brother went through a lot of places, too. We went to a library, a gym, and an Asian food bakery that serves delicious roasted duck. Most of the time, while at those places, I was looking and organizing my study guides I needed to bring on the trip. I am required to study on the trip because I am missing out on my school finals, which we are banned to take early-- how bizarre is that, trying to do homework on vacation? Crazy, I tell you.

Auditions today... what do I say? What should I say? Well, first thing is first: I saw so many people that I knew. The production was all joint based between the two high schools and a middle school over in our area, so when I went to the audition building, I greeted a bunch of people with hugs and fist bumps. A lot of the people that are people that I saw only several times a year, so when I do see them, I am loud. Real loud.

I waited for two hours and I still wasn't called. I sat, waiting, and finally, after going over to the vocals teacher and testing my vocal range, the acting coordinators called me up to audition as Glinda, the Good Witch. I honestly think that I could have done better, since I was fumbling on words during the monologue test, but what is done is done. I really do hope I can get that particular part rather than being a Munchkin. 

It sounds sour, but honestly? I want to branch out from being a part of the ensemble. I am grateful for every part that I get, I do think that can I bring out what it takes, but how can I bring out my true potential if my skills are being showcased for a limited amount of time on stage? I'm just going to pray and see how this will go.

I hope you have a Merry Christmas, everyone! Or Kwanzaa, Hanukkah, whatever you may celebrate. I will be on a bit on a hiatus, with my new design and last post of the year up and running during the last final days of 2014. The place where I am going has internet access, but since the place is far and not accustomed to what I am used to, my posting schedule will be wonky. 

Oh, and on a last note: my survey will be opened until about Friday this week. If you wish to fill it out or if you want me to put your link onto my Friends page, then please leave it in the comments, survey, or the blurb-de-blurb box below, as I have heard YouTubers call it. 

07 December 2014

Blessings and Opportunities


This year has gone by fast.
Life has been going on before my eyes to the point that all days seem to be smashed up together like mudberry pie-- which can be a good or bad thing, depending on how things are. I just want to soak in everything of 2014 and be grateful for everything of this year. I have been a part of so many "firsts," trying so many new and different things, all varying in many categories. And unlike last year, I feel like I have come from a storybook and just came alive off of the pages. I sound so much like a little naive child right now, but this is honestly how I feel.
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There's this picture that I saw online, which talks about how we think about last year and things were so different, which is true! Most of my time last year all I did was have my nose in a book and, if I wasn't reading, I would be playing volleyball or catching a glimpse of Harry Potter Weekend during one of the rare times that the television is not being occupied by the four other members of my household. I never knew on January 7th, 2013 that I would be auditioning for a play and getting a supporting role, which is above an ensemble member but underneath the leads. That's amazing, especially with the fact that I despise performing in front of many and that I'm quiet.
Thanks to many blessings given to me this year, I am a much stronger, confident person. I may fall flat on my face when I try to reach down for calculators and I stutter when I see my friends and their parents anywhere else outside of school, but I am much different.
I may not be able to post as much because of my severe concentration and attention on school, but still know that I'm here and still posting. I don't think I will ever really stop blogging, to be honest.
Besides my concentration of school, I'm getting ready for this recital my dance class is having and I am practicing my audition for the Wizard of Oz! It would be amazing if I got one of the lead roles (one of my friends and I had an argument about this), but because of my grade level, it may end up going older students. Well, I can dream, right? Balancing everything in my life like that again would be a pleasure. 
Confidentially, my musical theater group will be performing a mashup, "Somewhere Over the Rainbow / What a Wonderful World." Lately our group as been laughing to much during rehearsals that we can barely concentrate-- the youngest two out of our class of six talk about unicorns and the diversity of ethnicity. They can be young and we all act silly, but we talk about deep stuff.
I'm kind of terrified to see what may happen next year. Not sure how things will end up going down, but let's not go looking for opportunities-- let it bump into us. 
(P.S. Please still go and check out my survey; I only have five responses! And keep a look out for a new blog design coming up here soon. It's much simple-esquie,)

30 November 2014

November Summary













How is everyone today? My brother and I are having a hearty time watching Brave and having a movie character battle between Fergus, Merida's dad, and Stoick, Hiccup's father. In November I have been quite a busy person, mainly because of NaNoWriMo! After so days having to catch up from my word count, which I have been very much behind on and a main reason for my absence, I have finally won and written a 50,000 word novel! I'm so sad to have finally let Bee's story come to an end, but starting next year, I will be rewriting and editing so that about 75% of my novel has been polished before I let beta readers begin to critique.

Another thing that has happened in November is that I have watched Big Hero 6 twice: once with my friend Kristi, the other time with two friends from my school who's names, out of their request, I will hide out their respect. The first time, as you have read in a previous post, I went to go and reunite with some of my friends. The second time I went to go and watch the movie, it got sold out at five in the evening. For two hours, my friends and I stalled the mall where the movie theater was at, spending lots of time in Hallmark and Claire's! I love the Hallmark store; it's all squishy and cheesy but it's cozy and welcoming, which makes up for it. 

My brother, who has not seen any movie in the theater for a month, had tried to do a Baymax fist bump with me today, and he said, "Ba wa wa wa wa." Very disappointing.

My family and I had a rather laid back Thanksgiving with friends. This year, I am extremely thankful for all of the friends and people that I have met; they have changed my world, and I am a much outgoing sweet person because of all of the new things I have tried this year. While shopping for clothes, I bumped into one of those friends and we talked for a quite some time. During that weekend, I had bought a camera, a Canon Powershot ELPH SX600 HS, if I am not mistaken, as well as Just Dance 2015! My entire family loves this game; we played it for about several hours yesterday and today.

Over all, this had been a great month! I can't believe that December marks the ending of the year. Time sure flies by fast! Before I know it, it will be a year since I had first stepped into that audition space for The Magical Adventures of Merlin and have breakfast for dinner. However, I will be busy next month. The first half of December will be dedicated studying for finals, while the second half is dedicated to riding amusement park rides! I am going on vacation for Christmas. I won't post much, but I will try to have two posts in January about how my trip went.

Also, can you all please go and fill out my blog survey? As the year wraps up, I want to hear from you-- the readers-- as to what I can do in order to make this next year of blogging better! Thank you!

12 November 2014

I'm Okay.

"Don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened." -Dr. Seuss
I am super behind on NaNoWriMo. I am barely at 15,000 words, and in order to keep up with my word count, I have to go and write about 2,000 words a day to reach my goal of 50,000! The reason behind this is not because of procrastination, but because of activities that I did over the weekend, and I have to conclude it being one of the best weekends I have had this year.

I went to a writing conference that was being held in town exclusively for school students from grades 6-12, and a lot of my friends from theater and engineering camp were there, including my friends Sabrina and Kristina-- who are both amazing flawless ladies, by the way. :)

Afterwards I made it on time to musical theater performance class, and as a reward for working so hard, all five of we students that were there that day ended up doing a bunch of improvisation where we acted like preppy cheerleaders at a surgery and did a whole bunch of different scenes. The two youngest in our class, both fourth graders, did skits that made me crack up so much.


Sunday. After waiting a month, our cast party came! The planning for it all backfired; the original plans were watch a movie together and eat pizza. The scheduling date got moved to the ninth, and the movie which we were all going to watch, Big Hero 6, got sold out. In that case, our cast split ways before all coming together for the final get together.

I wasn't sure what would happen. I texted my friends frantically the evening prior to Sunday, who some were going to see Dracula Untold. I had mixed feelings about watching that movie-- mainly because I watched the trailers it was too intense for my taste. (If you place that and another horror film trailer together, you get a"I-am-terrified-to-my-seat" feeling.) By then I told my parents it was okay if we went shopping in the area where the pizza party was going to be held at, until my friend Kristi called me! She and I made plans within an hour to watch Big Hero 6 in another theater in town (which was super close to being sold out).

We all laughed at the trailers, and smiled at Winston in Feast. During the entire movie, I felt delighted. I laughed, I cried, and I can totally feel the relationship between Hiro and Tadashi, along with the metaphor Baymax represents. The little girl next to me kept buzzing to me and my friend the entire time, and it was cute.


The cast party was the last thing that happened over the weekend and that turned out great (except five people couldn't make it, because one was suffering migraines that day, one had to make up a huge pile of homework, one was trying to fight a cold, and the last two's family forgot). We kept buzzing about how our lives are-- and how I wasn't a part of Seussical anymore, a play which I auditioned for and received a major role, but had to drop out for reasons I do not wish to dwell on. As suggested by everyone there, I'm going to go in and talk about potentially volunteering with the performances in December.




You know, for awhile, I've been feeling super bottled up inside about not seeing my friends-- and I still am bummed, but with an opportunity that popped up, I have hope, for awhile. For now, I will just sit here at home, writing frivolously in my notebook my novel and dreaming about helping out with technical stuff. That's going to be okay with me.

(P.S. Blogs by Kids, which I have been following since about a week the blog was created-- yes I get around on the blogging community a lot-- featured me, which you can read here! If you all want to meet bloggers by other kids and interests as you, that is the place to be!)

02 November 2014

Bee's Theme

Today I am very pleased to tell you about my novel's theme! This month of November is the month of NaNoWriMo, and I am planning on writing about a novel idea I have had in mind for quite some time now.

I've been doing NaNoWriMo for exactly two years; today is my NaNo birthday! I exactly remember the day I joined NaNoWriMo. My family went out to go watch Rise of the Guardians at a faraway movie theater (alert: I was supposed to go to the exact same movie theatre today with some friends, but apparently the day got moved). Nearby that movie theater is a long chain of stores that my family went to visit. There, at Kohl's, I bought this sparkly white t-shirt and turtleneck for Christmas and New Year. Several days prior to that, I joined the NaNoWriMo group at my library, and so when we were shopping at Best Buy, I causally asked my mom to join the site. After that, we went to go eat at a sushi place. :)

Throughout the past several months, I have been giving you tiny snippets of how the it will play out, and although this information that I have presented is quite vague, I can now to you the plot and premise of this! Now I know this is not the plot line, but I believe that the overall theme is what makes the plot the plot, the characters the way they are, the reasons behind everything in the story. So it is really important.

Cornelia Beatrice Harvard, or Bee, as she is better called by her family, often gets teased about her physical appearance. Everyone thinks that she is adopted, looking nothing like her parents, and she is looked down upon by everyone at school-- quite literally, as her height is only 4'11". She physically looks like a freshman, but is actually a sophomore who's brain power can challenge those of the juniors and seniors.

There are several unfortunate circumstances that cause her to be thrown into the world of public school, for a good cause. Her reasons for joining are for the greater good of her family. Her knowledge on the interaction very discreet and vague, for she rarely interacts with anyone outside of her family. Her personality and values all revolve around the intellect; be analytic and rational, speak only with others who carry and crave the same level of knowledge as she, and goals come before everything else.  This causes her to be a bit of a loner.

Some of the main "antagonists" are three (or four, I still need to decide whether to add or remove a character) students who stand in the way of reaching this goal that she is trying very hard to achieve. Yes, they are formidable opponents whose skills, however different, are on par with hers in intellect. All are older, and Bee gets competitive and fired up to fight against them, but her small demeanor makes the antagonists underestimate her.

Are you all understanding what I've been trying to say so far? Everyone can't see past the physical appearance of Bee to see what the real thread coming from her is: her brain power and determination.

At first, Bee strongly dislikes the antagonists with their cockiness and ability to sway the school crowd of the school's opinions. She sees them to have no reason as to why they would be fighting for the same goal as she. As the novel progresses, she realizes that how they appear to be is different then how they really are on the inside.

Before I reveal to you what the main theme is, before I make it obvious and clear, I would like to tell you about photography and what it means to me. My camera just shattered (the screen part) which totally kills me, but hopefully I will get it fixed and won't have to get a new one. When I first got my camera, all I took were just pictures with everyone and everything all poised and smiling towards the camera. As I progressed in my photography, my photo library subjects changed. I took photos of subtle little things that no one seemed to notice, but that's how I am-- I notice the tinniest details that no one seems to care about.

My photography reflected me. I bring my camera everywhere. I take pictures of things that aren't properly positioned. I take photos things people see, and what they overlook-- soda cans, glasses, city lights, and dead plants. I brought my camera over my phone. People used to think that that was a strange thing to do, with everyone with the increasing usage of smartphones, but they got accustomed to it. Even with my camera broken, I still use it. Half of my LCD glass may be shattered, but that doesn't necessarily hinder my perspective. I just need to view it on my laptop.

This was me several months ago, using a school camera. 

The main theme of my novel for this year is all about the perspective of how we take in the world and other people. This is more like a 3-dimensional, 360 degree sort of perspective. I bet when we first see people or their actions, we only see the front part-- the 2D feel, and this causes us to hinder our sight on their reasons on doing certain things. This is a lot similar to biases. We have to look past that and give the entire view of everything before judging.

Usually, that is how I try to think a lot when I interact with my surrounding environment, especially when I try to help others. That's the way I work. I ask myself, "What does everyone need? What can I do to help?" At my school, there's a lot of people have really horrible days, and when I have to work with these people, I try to help cut them some slack and help them through. I can't help it; it's in my nature to do that.

This is one of the major struggles that Bee has to go through. She is critical and sees 3D in a rational and critical standpoint, but with anything emotional? Oh boy. For her, that's uncharted territory which she has to wade in very carefully. (I just tested her for her personality type, and she is an INTJ, one of the toughest personalities out there, and it's almost the polar opposite of how I am.) I love making my characters in all of my novels suffer about deep things: grieving, healing, broken hearts, identity crisis, and now, perspective. There's some deep stuff going on here at my little imagination office.

How's everyone doing so far in NaNoWriMo? What's your novel's theme? If you want to talk to me during NaNoWriMo for Word Wars or you've ran out of steam or need a plot idea, talk to me! I love talking to people during NaNoWriMo!

27 October 2014

The Three Musketeers

Recently I had just finished a production of The Three Musketeers. If things were different, I would still be performing, but I couldn't because of some boundaries blocking me. Dealing with having to drop out (especially since I landed a major) has been real hard for me, and now school has been so hard for me.

My grades are all right, but I'm not happy with my life and how it is right now. I'm steering away from something that is a part of me, and it's like in the Golden Compass by Philip Pullman, when the General Oblation Board was cutting children's dæmons; the part of one's soul that is outside of the body and that takes a form of an animal. It's painful.

Let's leave the angst and talk about how the production went.

There were three people from my last show that I knew, which was great! It made it much easier for me to interact with people, whereas the first time I joined the theatre company, I basically stood in a corner, reading whatever I could scourge to find in our rehearsal space. A majority of everyone else were in middle or high school, because our play was much more mature than our showing counterpart (I won't give the name, but it revolves around furniture and a rose). For the first week of rehearsals, I was silent, but after that, I became super loud and outgoing. 

Everyone there is super sweet and supportive! We are all awkwardly strange in our own ways. One time, I talking to some of my cast members and then all of a sudden, the male leads started to say, "Hey, don't speak! Let's only speak in interpretive dancing." We actually all did, and it was funny! 

Unlike the previous production, this was a dramatic show and there was no singing. Despite my parents saying musicals were better, I stayed with it. I had never been in a dramatic show before and I needed to carve and cultivate my skills. In fact, I was given a small role which appealed to me greatly: I was a "lady friend" of Aramis. The idea of playing a character who was the polar opposite of me just felt refreshing. In other shows, I would always land strange roles-- a grandmother who baked cookies, a narrator who spoke of the Northern Lights, one of the witches from Macbeth, and an evil knight that works for Morgana.

There was still a lot of singing (with the song Rather Be being performed during the show), and, as a bonus, everyone there was completely photogenic! We would end up hacking into each other's phones and spam each other with photos. When we finally got our phones back, we would look at the person all like:

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Surprisingly, I am posting a lot of Pride and Prejudice photos! Now for some actual pictures I took before the actual shows! The four below were all taken on my phone which does not have good lighting and exposure, so bear with me.

 During rehearsals, we all have this habit of drawing with highlighter...

These were my first ever Birthday Oreo cookies, which half of them in the package that were bought had the design part facing inside the cream.

One of my friends from theater. <3 She's now the main major lead in the show that is being rehearsed now.

Now some pictures during our free time! In between shows (some days we have to perform two shows in a row) we would all go to a mall that's several blocks away from our performance theater. Excuse how I keep taking many photos of the backs of a person's head.

Watching as the actor playing the antagonist try to win himself either Beats headphones or a Kindle Fire... hey, innkeeper, your head is there!

The twins and Aramis.

Hi, Innkeeper and Monsieur de Treville! The twins and I have been looking for you all for several hours!

The full cast in the loading dock area,

Um... yeah, there a lot of photos like this of different people posing strangely... :) This is just one of many.

I'm absolutely grateful for working and meeting this lovely cast and hopefully someday, I will have the privilege to work with all of them again. I can't wait to see all of these people on Sunday! We're all going out to watch a movie and possibly, my friends and I will finally host our photo shoot then!

25 October 2014

Winners of the Writing Contest!

Update: This was meant to be published yesterday, but the scheduling of the post went wacky before I left.

Before I go to watch The Maze Runner or Alexander and the Terrible, Horrible, No-Good, Very Bad Day with my family, I will go and announce the winners of my writing contest! Today, I really have no excuse if I post this lately, because all I have been doing is stalking the Box Office box all day, as well as watching Once Upon a Time and Legend of Korra. Here are all of those who entered and their beautiful entries! 
Aliah
Morning Kay
Jollygirl
Kat
Lauren
Lizzie
Chloee

I have to tell you that it was very hard for me to choose the winners, because all of you ladies wrote amazingly. But I have to announce a winner. Okay, so in third place, the winner is.... are you ready? Lizzie! Here's her entry!
You looked around to see
As a fall colored leaf fell gently.
Could you make yourself understand
That this land,
Your heart was not meant to be?
You need to leave, to go and see
The places you have dreamed.
Where you stand in this land
Your heart does not belong.
You feel a need to push away
What you have held for so long.
Can it be done? Can you go?
A question burns inside.
If home is where the heart is,
Then you must decide.

Isn't her entry lovely? It's about the choice of either leaving or staying home, and it's something that, I think, everyone will have to make the choice to someday. Great job! :)

Writing Contest

Now for second place. The second place winner is... dun dun dun dun dun dun... Jollygirl!

You.
You hurt everyone. 
Your friends,
Your family,
Yourself,
Your words
they were piercing
And, they didn't go away
staying there 
right there
a scar
forever and ever
And your lies,
they brought you down
as the truth was 
unmasked,
You.
You betrayed 
people
hurt them
for yourself.
Now, 
I see you
biting
at your lip,
Guilt flooding into your
face
in realization of what 
you 
have done. 
There is no way to erase
what
you
did,
You 
can't take it 
back. 
But,
tomorrow,
the sun will rise
again,
a new chance,
hope

Beautiful! Staying positive for the new day. ^.^ Here is your button:

Writing Contest

Now for the first place winner! The first place winner is.... are you ready for this? I can hear the drum rolls... but not from you! Drum roll, please! Dun dun dun dun dun.... Morning Kay!

Dear You
A Short Story by Morning Kay
Dear you,
My mom always tells me that writing something down is better than brooding on it; Writing helps you move on with your life... Especially if you write letters. So, here it goes...
The thing is, you annoy me way too much. I wish you wouldn't follow me around, trying to get me to play pretend... That drives me nuts. You're almost as annoying as my little sister and boy, is she relentless...
So please, go away.

Dear you,
You asked the teacher to change our seats today so that you could sit beside me. I'm a joke now. Everyone knows you're the goofy nerd who likes reading too much and now that you asked to sit by me, people think we're friends.
As if I didn't get beat up enough.
And if that wasn't already bad, you stood up for me! You tried to get those guys to stop picking on me and I just got made fun of more... I'm a guy, you're a girl. You shouldn't be taller than me, smarter than me, or braver than me...
Please, just go away. I don't want to play pretend.

Dear you,
I finally gave in. I played pretend with you, but only because you wanted to play Star Wars! I love Star Wars!
To be completely honest... I had fun. When you asked me if I wanted to come over sometime to watch the movies, I didn't say no. ...And I wasn't lying.

Dear you,
I think we're friends now. At least... that's what you said we were today. I don't know how it happened. At first I hated you, then I tolerated you, and now we play together every day.
I like being around you, so… don't go away.

Dear you,
It's been a long time since we became friends... But not once in that time have I ever seen you cry.
You were crying today.
When I tried to talk to you, you just yelled. When I tried to ask you what was wrong, you just cried harder. I didn't know what else to do, so I just hugged you.
It was all I could give you and I'd like to think it helped.
My mom said yesterday that your dad left, but I’m not so sure what she meant. I wonder... is that why you were crying?

Dear you,
You come over to my house a lot more now that you and your mom are all alone. Now that your dad doesn't read with you, you ask me to.
I don't like to read normally, but with you, I don't mind. We usually only get halfway through the story before you start inserting your own ideas and just make up your own endings.
I think you should just write your own books. I might read those.

Dear you,
It's been a couple of years since I've written. I haven't  had to. I didn’t need to get you off my mind until now.
You've stopped talking to me.
I don't know why... I mean, I know we aren't kids anymore, but I still feel like you should at least tell me if there's something wrong. I hope it's not something I did… I hope that I'm not old news now that we're older and you've made more friends. In fact, you have more friends than I can count. I can't stop thinking about it, but I'm afraid to confront you. I almost feel like we're close enough that I should know... but maybe not close enough for it to be my business.
We are still friends aren't we?
Geez... You're starting to annoy me like you did back when we first met. But this time, please, don’t go away.

Dear you,
He broke your heart yesterday. You know, the reason you stopped talking to me... Yeah, that insecure jerk dumped you!
I figured it out when I saw you crying in the hallway. Obviously, I rushed over to see what was wrong since that was just the second time I had ever seen you cry.  But this time when I asked you what was wrong, you didn’t yell… You were confused. You asked why I should even care.
I laughed at that and told you I was your friend and would always care.
That's when you told me what had happened, and this time, hugging you was not the only thing I could do. Let's just say that when you asked me today what happened to my hand, I didn't smash it in a door like I said... I just haven't had enough experience punching people to know how to do it properly.
Yet something still bothers me about the whole situation... Of course, I care about you, so why would you ask me if I even did? I care... I really do!
You know that, don't you?

Dear you,
We graduated yesterday. We've been going to school together for years... It's where we met and played. It's sad to let it go. I'll go off to college and you'll go off to “write brilliant stories in far off lands”. Yes, the pursuit is quite unrealistic and very... well, you. That's why I'm sure you'll be a success.
You told me we had to keep in touch… So maybe once you're gone, I'll get around to sending these letters.

Dear you,
I read your latest book. I always thought you'd be good at storytelling but this really takes the cake!
I'm sure you're doing well... Even if you don't reply to my letters.  I've written you every day but I only send a sole few. Most letters I write get tucked in with ones like these; The ones I write to keep my mind off of you.
But that's getting harder and harder.
Please, don't go away.

Dear you,
I was starting to get worried... If it weren't for your books coming out, I would've thought you were dead! I haven't gotten a single reply after every letter I sent you. I always wrote it off as a mailing problem or something... But as the years have gone by, I figured you had just moved on. Even still... I wished many times that you would send me something other than silence. I don't have to wish anymore though, because I saw you today in the supermarket.
saw you.
I called your name without thinking it through. I probably should've taken the lack of letters as a sign that you didn't want anything to do with me. I'm glad I didn't.
You were so happy to see me... Your smile is exactly the same but your eyes are full of adventure now. You’re beautiful.
We talked a long while, your arms full of a few gallons of ice cream, which is just like you. It was then that you squealed in a sort of happy realization and pulled two stacks of envelopes from your bag.
All my letters... And all your replies.
You apologized for not sending them but, you had them for me now. You handed them off, saying we should get together soon and I happily agreed. I've read the letters through the whole night in order, and I'm amazed that through all your adventures, you still remembered me. While you've been out finding meaning in your life, exploring the creation of God to its farthest corners, and living your dreams, I've been here writing you letters.
I hope you won't ride me off as mundane now that you've decided to stay for a while. I wish the very best for you... I'm glad I can see your face again.

Dear you,
Your mom told me it would be alright if I...
Well, asked you to marry me.
But I don't know how! I feel like a kid again... I'm so scared of how you'll react. I have this sinking feeling that you'll reject me and that's the last thing I want.
I love you.

Dear you,
You said yes.

Dear you,
I couldn't help but ask you if you missed seeing the world now that we’ve settled down.
“Not at all,” you said, looking up from where you and our kids were playing on the floor. “More than anything, I've missed playing pretend!”
That's funny... So have I. I love you so much.

Dear you,
I'm sure it's hard for you taking care of the kids alone, especially when they're so young and... eccentric. I hope that I can get out of this hospital soon. It sure is boring without seeing your smile all the time and now when I do see you, you're always so sad. But, don't worry... I'll get better soon.
I love you.

Dear you,
I've been in the hospital for longer than I thought... I hope that this won't last for much longer and I have a feeling that it won't...
But not in the way I've been hoping.
I've been thinking about the days when we used to play pretend. I still remember your laughing face. You don't laugh much anymore... But I hope you will. Promise me you will.
Stay strong. I love you.

Dear you,
I read your letter.
Well, I guess that should be plural, shouldn't it? It was a series of entries, but I almost feel like it was just one long letter. The letter of our life.
I have to say... It was fun to read them. I don't know how you'll react when you find out, but... They made me smile.
I think it's about time that I sent a reply.
It's funny... Did you really hate me that much when we were younger? I'm sure I did seem like quite the little pest, huh? I'm just glad that I eventually got through to you. Also... I'm sorry about the times I didn't talk to you, and especially when I went away and didn't send my replies. To be honest... I was afraid to send them. I felt so stupid and inadequate and was afraid of what you might think, but reading these letters of your own, I guess you know the feeling. But nevertheless, I'm sorry for my selfishness and I'm especially sorry for not recognizing your friendship for what it was when you were still with me.
You passed away a year ago. I found this book of letters around that time but didn't read them. I was still too hurt. It's only now that I've gotten around to it.
But...
Now, without you... Well... It's hard. We miss you and... I'm very lonely. I haven't been writing nearly as much. After all, it's no fun playing pretend without you. But I'm staying strong... Just like you asked.
Someone once told me that writing something down was better than brooding on it... That writing helps you move on with your life.
But what if that's not always the case?
What if now I'm writing to remember; to relish in a world where all was perfect but no one even knew it. What if I'm writing to go back to that world of make-believe where children still laugh and play pretend.
Tell me, love... Why would I want to move on from that?
I love you and I miss you.
Wait for me; Don't go away. If you promise me that, I think I'll be alright.
So goodbye for now, my love, my sweet, my friend...
Dear you.

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